So you want the pain to all go away? End the tears rolling down your face, cut everyone away from you, just to stop it all, make it all end. Yes, the pain will end for you, but what about your loved ones? What about the split second moment of when your parents or siblings walk into your room reminding you that dinner is ready, but instead they see their dead child in front of their eyes. The pain you had… Will now have moved onto your parents. Now I’m not trying to make you feel guilty but their world will become so dark, they will blame themselves every.single.day. ‘Was it something I did?’ ‘Was it something I did?’ They’ll try to think it was all just a nightmare and they are going to wake up from this dream and you will be alive. They won’t give up, they will try anything to not accept the truth. So after killing yourself, and after your parents discovering your body, what will they have to do next? Who’s going to ring the school saying a student has killed them self? Who’s going to tell your best friends that you have taken your own life?
You are probably are thinking ‘oh i don’t have any friends and my parents hate me anyways’ in some cases that may be true but in most it is absolutely not. But i guarantee you that there is someone out there that loves you and would miss you dearly if you killed yourself. This someone is who you can feel safe in confronting your feelings with. Try to find this person and vent to them. You will feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders and you will feel better.
Just because the pain shall end for you, does not mean the pain will just automatically end for everyone. Everyone will remember you. People who didn’t even have a conversation with you, will remember you. ‘The kid that killed them self’. People on Facebook who have never even typed one word to you, will remember you.
suicide is permanent. there’s no coming back. you’re here for a reason, actually you’re here for ∞ reasons. you’re meant to be here. if you kill yourself now, how will you ever be able to be something? what if you’re going to be the president or find the cure for aids or cancer or something seriously like that? so many people care about you, many more people than you actually think. plus, imagine all of the people that are really sick and are going to die soon even though they are too young and not ready. appreciate your life. whatever you’re feeling now, will go away. and it might not go away for a while but everything ends. god doesn’t put you through anything that you can’t handle or overcome. you’re better than this. you’re strong. you’re beautiful. life is hard, its hard for everyone
you have so much to look forward to in life and if you don’t think there’s is anything then make something to look forward to! The best way to do this is to make goals. Long term ones are the best but any goal is awesome. They can be anything from losing 10 pounds and getting better grades to getting hired to the job you’ve always dreamed of. Try your best to achieve these goals and stay motivated to do so! Once you’ve completed them you will feel so proud and good about yourself.
Now get counseling, get anything that doesn’t involve taking your own life. Because there are so many people that care for you, even though you cannot see it. There are so many people that love you, even though they may never say it. You’d want to be proud and look back at how difficult your life was and just think ‘wow, I really pulled through that one’. So please, do not pass your pain onto your loved ones. Suicide: a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Temporary, meaning you can stand over the problem. I know it’s not going to be all easy and ‘la la im happy now :)’, because we all fucking know that is bullshit. But please, just try to get through whatever is making you feel this way. Do not run away from it, do not let people achieve what they set out to do. People who have nothing better to do with their lives then attack innocent people, are going to end up nowhere. Because by the end of the day it all comes down to jealousy. So just smile, walk away and say fuck you. You’re better then anybody who makes you come to this breaking point of wanting to take your own life. You don’t even know me, but I love you so much.
Chin up, you’re beautiful
credit to riding-the-wavess for half of that
Don’t ever hesitate to call.
- Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
- Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
- LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
- Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
- Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
- Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
- Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
- Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
- Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
- Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253